20 weeks to the New York City Marathon and I have completely lost my motivation. I did so good for 3 weeks of training, but the last 2 weeks have been horrid!
I run a 10K race last Saturday and I haven’t run since. I just don’t feel like it, just a blah I don’t care about doing this get me out of it feeling… someone come to my rescue!
Tomorrow I start my group training, 18 weeks of long runs is what I call it. But my gloomy self is not looking forward to it. I’ve been receiving emails for the past week and instead of being full of happy anticipation, I am just freaked out about the whole thing. What if they are too hardcore, what if they put me down because I’m so slow, what if they tell me to my face what I already know: that I’m way over my head if I think I can run a marathon by November!
I hate myself for thinking like this. I just need to snap out of it! Get Miss Negativity out of my head and hope for the best. I bet I’m going to find super encouraging people ready to cheer me up! We are all nervous the first day with new people, right? It’s normal to be a little worried…
For the next two weeks I’ll be dog sitting and these doggies have a full gym at home, so I have no excuse not to exercise. I can hit the stationary bike and the elliptical while watching TV! So here goes my promise to get out of this gunky state and start being happy and positive and exercise, exercise, exercise. To quote one of my girls: “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people don’t shoot their husbands. They just don’t!” — Elle Woods
But wait! Before I turn into happy Andrea I have to share this with you. Disgust! LOL